If I told you.

If I told you some truthful facts, would that help you to choose life for yourself and your baby?

If I told you after my abortion in 1989

I lived with a deep sadness and a hole in my soul,

I experienced grief, something I never expected since this was my choice,

I experienced a deep regret and spent the time running from the decision I made,

I felt alone and ashamed,

I knew that nothing was ever going to be the same.

Would these truths help you to choose life for yourself and your baby?

Ashley Victoria's Mom

If I told you after my abortion in 1996              

I wanted to commit suicide,

I grieved but did not know what was wrong,

I died right along with my baby,

I would not do any task just for the joy of it like a leisurely walk. It had to be hard exercise or it was no good.

I shut down from love.

Would these truths help you to choose life for yourself and your baby?

Grace Roberta's Mom

If I told you after my abortion in 1999
I was drowning in guilt. I died inside,

I knew I made the wrong choice,

I felt like a murderer allowed to walk freely in society,

I could not look at another child without thinking 'what if...',

I spent every day living in shame and grieving the loss of my child.

Would these truths help you to choose life for yourself and your baby?

Giullia & Andréa’s Mom

If I told you after my abortion in 1972

I felt an emptiness that has never gone away,

I now realize there will be no children or grandchildren there for me when I get old,

I have never been able to let anyone get close to me,

I have often wondered what my child would have looked like or what kind of person my child would have been.

I spent a long time being angry about my decision and feeling sorry for myself.

Would these truths help you to choose life for yourself and your baby?

Elizabeth's Mom

As mothers on this healing journey,
we have lovingly named our unborn children.

What did my post-abortion guilt look like, feel like, sound like?

Social and professional situations became different. Feelings of fear and anxiety would come over me suddenly, anytime, anywhere. It was so ironic - it was easier beforehand, when I was pregnant, to separate myself from my baby, than it was to separate myself from her after she was gone.

Ashley Victoria's Mom

It felt like a big black void, far, far, far, from God - like death. My post-abortion guilt sounded like a vacuum cleaner - something being sucked away. AWFUL.

Grace Roberta's Mom

My guilt was knowing that I would have had a beautiful healthy child with its father's eyes. My child did not deserve what I did. Children love unconditionally. I took away my child's right to live when I was too afraid to face my mistake. I chose my happiness over my child's life and in turn ruined 2 lives. I have to spend every day of my life knowing this.

Giullia & Andréa’s Mom

My guilt tasted terrible, felt worse like the worse thing ever, sounded like the most horrible noise ever.

Elizabeth's Mom

What did my anger feel like?

I have tried to make up some excuse for my sudden outbursts of tears or anger over anything. These emotions added to the pain and left me emotionally distant and tired.

Ashley Victoria's Mom

Self-hatred, depression. I had to be punished and no one was doing that, so I punished myself, not allowing myself to enjoy even the most simple things in life. I would not buy new clothes; I would not go to movies because I felt I didn't deserve it.

Grace Roberta's Mom

My anger was so strong that I felt guilt whenever I started to enjoy simple pleasures. I didn't like to allow myself these privileges. I was angry with myself because I was a coward, instead of taking responsibility for my actions I ran and took the easy way out. I deprived myself of the happiness that my child would have brought me and the life we could have had together.

Giullia & Andréa’s Mom

It felt like a big red hot dagger stuck in my heart. No matter what I did I couldn't get away from it. It was slow burning and never went away. It wore me down physically, emotionally and spiritually. I couldn't seem to shake it off.

Elizabeth’s Mom

Jesus tells us...

"I am the WAY yes and the TRUTH and the LIFE."

John 14-6